To the girl who is juggling it all -
- I see you, you don’t go unnoticed.
The way you portray yourself on social media, having this well put together life, traveling and creating memories.
But you are hurting aren’t you?
What are you running away from?
Who are you trying to hide yourself from, what are you scared of?
I know that you stay up late at night with thoughts of uncertainty wondering what is going to happen next, praying for a sign or an answer of what direction you should take in your life. I understand that things get tough. The loneliness you experience on the inside is more than you can bare sometimes, and even though you have people around you who love you and support you, you still find yourself missing out on the one thing you crave the most…genuine affection. Listen, this doesn’t make you a bad person, or selfish for not wanting to be alone, it makes you human, it makes you vulnerable. I know you’ve been through hell and back. I know that you have given your all repeatedly to the wrong ones who made it impossible to love them,
— and I am not simply talking about romantic relationships…you have been dealing with abandonment issues your whole life —
but you kept on trying because you are a fighter, a fixer and the biggest damn sappy person I have ever met. And honestly a hopeless fucking romantic and you cant help but want what you read about in those poetry books you hold so close to your heart, or in the movies you drown yourself in on nights when you cant bare to be in the silence of your own doubts.
I don’t blame you one bit, you will find that one day, it will come…and this time you will be ready. But for now I need you to remember to focus on you and embrace the lonely for what it is
— Growth.
You will grow so much in this time apart, learn about who you are and what you want to become. Shit you might even realize that you are wanting to move in a different direction, or that
you find absolute peace in the solitude of your own thoughts that you once hated.
It doesn’t all have to pan out the way you thought it would when you were 12 years old, watching sixteen candles for the first time, feeling like the invisible girl and waiting for the boy to finally wake up and realize that you are the one. This just my reminder to you love, that things take time and embracing your season right now is what you need to do. So continue to travel, work your ass off and hustle like its all you’ve got. You got this far because your a tenacious and strong willed individual who above all else knows that the one thing that she can control is her own path, no matter how many bumps are along the way, or how many u-turns she had to take because she can’t follow directions.
You are beautiful, strong and so damn capable of loving — Yourself.
Remember this, always.
Sincerely,