BLOG-MAS Day 11 + 12// The Power of Overwhelm
A PERSONAL TESTIMONY//
If you are anything like me you are ALWAYS in fast motion, you don't take time to just be in the moment and the days start to blend together because you are so busy.
We are often in a state of Human-Doing rather than Human-Being.
We all reach this point at one time or another//
Where everything we are trying to do, or trying to avoid comes crashing down.
Any one who knows me, knows that I am the most optimistic person, or at least I try to be. And that is my defense mechanism. I do not like to speak negatively or talk down about situations. Any negative situation has a a positive source in the long run, only lessons or rewards should come out of everything in life.
BUT.
life is hard, situations we can't control can make us feel like we are suffering alone. I'm not too sure where I'm going with this post, I'm simply writing to release, and in hopes that if you're reading this you can feel that you aren't alone in this either.
SO let me take you back to my first experience dealing with my very first anxiety attack -
I had a rough week, and I didn't know how rough until everything I've been suppressing hit me like a ton of bricks.
If you're juggling six thousand things it's going to eventually come crashing down if you don't take a break from it all.
In my case the tipping point was finals at school. I work a full time job, I'm a senior in college, and I run a side photography business along with trying to maintain relationships, eating semi clean to maintain my health, and I was in the process of publishing my first book. Shit gets crazy, and no I don't have a child to take care of like some people who are working and maintaining a life as well.
ANYWAYS//
As I was trying to figure out how to go about doing my final project for a class-
the overwhelm hit me like a bus,
like Regina George getting hit by a bus.
I had no idea what was happening, all of a sudden I couldn't breathe and my entire body felt like I was being attacked by a million ants on the inside of my body. So I simply thought I was having an allergic reaction to something, but there was no obvious signs on my skin. I woke up in tears and thought I could just take some medicine to stop the invisible itching, hopped in my car and went to work. To my surprise the moment I got to work it started all over again and I found myself hyperventilating and in full blown kim k tears the moment I sat down. Luckily I worked right next to the Emergency room - when I got to the ER they told me that everything I was describing was symptoms and indicators of acute stress disorder. I was so embarrassed that I caused my body to shut down that way.
This is what I mean by Human Being vs Human Doing. We constantly forget to live in the NOW and cherish the moment. Celebrate the accomplishments that you have reached. Put aside things that can be done later, do not keep filling your plate when it is already full. It is perfectly okay to want to do it all, just not all at once.
Things to remember when you are feeling on the edge of losing control//
1. Take time to breathe//
your mental and emotional state should not suffer, no matter what you have going on.
2. Create a Must Do & a To Do//
tackle things one at a time, create alter different lists and make sure that you prioritize.
3. Stay focused//
on what truly matters and what has to get done in the NOW. Everything else can wait.
4. Seek help//
its okay to not know it all and to not do it all.
5. Keep the faith//
consistent and always. God has been a huge part in all of my blessings and in my troubled seasons. Sometimes when bad things happen we tend to put faith in the back burner. This is the time you need to put your worries and insecurities in the hands of the Lord.
"But they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint." - Isaiah 40:31